On Life

And so I come to you again after a bit of an absence . . . These past few months have been filled with much news on many fronts.  So much, that I have not had the coordination to manage both my thoughts and other duties in tandem!  But as my belly grows large with the promise of new life, my time has grown more and more still and precious.

I am expecting my first child.  In my first few months, the wonder and magickal nature of the experience grew obscured by the medical professionals meeting their malpractice obligations to warn me of the 100s of things that could go wrong.  I allowed myself to be caught up in the modern bureaucracy of having a baby, and the well-intentioned advice from men and women alike did little to abate my growing trepidation during that time . . .

Then . . . stillness.  Amidst the whirling words and scans and faces, I have finally found my peace as I go within and speak to my little one.  Just the two of us.  Her spirit is strong and vibrant, glowing with the beauty of all she already is.  In the quiet, with her, there is peace from all the rest.  She is growing and learning already, the magick of this life.  Connected to all she has ever experienced, she reaches out her tiny hands to explore the world awaiting her arrival.

I do not try to explain our meditations together.  There are many who believe she has no ability to process memories, cognitive thoughts, emotion, sounds or the tastes of the world for which she is preparing.  But the Spirit who has given me the gift and honor of being a Mother is so much more than her mere physical self.  She is a vibrant, aware and ancient Spirit, as is each of us.  And it is with this essence, this life, that I communicate as I nurture her growing physical form.

At 19 weeks I feel her tiny movements as bubbles and butterfly wings.  Our bodies are growing together and I know only Joy at this extraordinary experience!  And as the ultrasound shows me her heartbeat and hiccoughs, I feel her Spirit intertwining with mine, as she trusts me to bring her into this world.

I am truly Blessed!  Blessings Be!